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Manic spending

Over the past week I have gone crazy with spending. I bought myself a pair of really expensive diamond earrings, a designer suede leather studded bag and I have given £60 to a homeless man and £40 to university charities. I feel like I’ve been so out of control that I froze my bank account unto l I go to South America in the summer.

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My friend doesn’t believe I have eating disorders

So because I’ve not completely stopped eating and I’ve just been cutting out carbs and eating salads and soups without bread apparently I don’t have an eating disorder.

I have still been throwing up unhealthy food and of course she should understand that there is a spectrum with eating disorders. Just because I’m not starving myself completely doesn’t mean I don’t have an eating disorder.

I am still feeling very low on energy all the time.

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Bipolar disorder and substance misuse

I have bipolar disorder but I am also a recovering alcoholic.

It was a gradual process. When I was 18 and going to clubs I drank so much I ended up throwing up the next day.

Then at university I would have one bottle of wine for pre drinks and then multiple rum and coke doubles or tequila shots and I was more drunk than everyone.

Once I had two bottles of wine at a party and threw up and then left with my best friend Will and continued to drink lots at the students union.

A fellow student told me he was concerned about the amount I was drinking.

Then when I came home from university I ended up drinking multiple doubles of gin and tonic about four times a week whilst my mother was out of the country.

I once ended up going to the GP after having drank six doubles and I was very drunk.

I stopped drinking for three months once I got depressed and then only had a drink this week as I have been manic and could not control myself.

I know my hardcore drinking also got worse after I was sexually assaulted.

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Bipolar and anorexia night out

As I can’t take drugs or drink alcohol my night out consists of staying at home and watching Bojack Horseman as well as eating soup because I’m hungry because I threw up my dinner but I’m anorexic so I don’t want to have any carbs.

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Thursday food diary

I ate a chicken salad wrap and then ended up impulsively giving into purging my brownies and also the chicken wrap. I then felt so guilty about the purging that I missed my class.

Then for dinner I had vegetarian pasta without cheese and ate two thirds of it.

No snacks and no coke and only tea with oat milk and one sugar because I like some sugar.

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