This is my last mental health awareness post on how depression has affected my life. I cannot and do not speak for others, this is just a personal account.
Depression has affected my life in many ways. Physically I have had very low energy levels and found getting out of bed or just going for a ten minute walk incredibly difficult. I have also been very tired whilst depressed and have tended to sleep about 12 hours a night.
I have found myself unable to function in a working environment or to study whilst depressed as I have lacked motivation and the ability to concentrate. Furthermore, I have found it difficult to function socially and have been uncommunicative and have felt the need to fake it whilst depressed.
For me one of the worst things about depression is anhedonia which is where you are unable to experience pleasure from things you used to enjoy. I have been so depressed that I didn’t get any pleasure from anything, even reading and going to see friends. I have often been bored by everything whilst being depressed as well as feeling numb.
Whilst being depressed I have had lots of negative thoughts such as the belief that I am a failure and that everything is pointless. This has been combined at times with suicidal thoughts.
I have found walks and swimming to be very helpful in lifting my depression as well as low-stress volunteering
I hope that by opening up about my experience I can raise awareness of depression as well as let others know that they are not alone.