I don’t know who said it but someone said that it’s a good idea to write down positive things you have done each day during mental illness recovery.
During my first week back from hospital I read a small book and watched an hour of French TV. These were achievements for me as often when I am in a manic episode I cannot concentrate and the fact that I didn’t have trouble reading the book and watched the TV all the way through showed that my concentration is quite good unlike last year where I could hardly concentrate for more than 15 minutes on something and struggled to read.
This week my achievements are that I have watched three Spanish films, I went to a small party, I started reading a new book and I visited my grandma in the nursing home. The fact that I watched three foreign films without English subtitles is a major achievement as it requires a lot of concentration as a non-Native speaker to understand what is going on. The party was a big thing as I was reluctant to go as I thought I might get tired out like the week before. In fact, I did eventually get tired out but when everyone was starting to leave.
Visiting my grandma was a major achievement as she doesn’t know about my mental health problems so I sometimes find it hard to go and see her and as she has dementia going to see her can be upsetting even though her sense of humour makes visits normally mostly okay.
I also think that the fact that I was undeterred by my two PTSD panic attacks in a city and still went out to two cities is a huge achievement when it comes to my recovery from trauma. I am not going to let anything stop me from doing things!
If I were depressed then I would say that the fact I went out four times this week to socialise with friends and even more the week before was an achievement but because I am still on a high even though I am pretty much stable I wouldn’t call them achievements as it is typical for me to socialise a lot when I’m high.
Overall, I think I am making great progress in my recovery, I just need to cut back on my socialising a bit as it’s too expensive and I need to focus more on doing other things which make me feel I have achieved something such as doing more exercise and stay very focused on my goal to recover and get ready for university next year.