For over a year I had been swinging from extreme lows to extreme highs with not even two months of stability in between.
I had been labelled by a psychiatrist in hospital as having “unstable bipolar disorder” and I got to the point where I thought I was treatment resistant. I was stable for two weeks before they let me out of hospital and then I got manic again.
I think sometimes in life you just have to be patient and wait for things to happen and I was very impatient and frustrated after months of failed medication combinations. When I got manic again my antipsychotic medication, Asenapine was upped and this helped calm me down a lot.
However, it didn’t calm me down completely and so my psychiatrist decided to put me on a second mood stabiliser, Carbamazepine.
At first, I seemed to be getting a bit low rather than stable and then I got high again and I continued to swing but eventually I had a stable week before getting a bit low for three days. I then had another 11 days of stability.
I guess this is what recovery is like, your symptoms are reduced or you start to have no symptoms. I am really enjoying my current symptom free period and hope it lasts for a while. I don’t like my highs as I get extremely manic and they last for a while. I guess my medication cocktail of Lithium, Asenapine and carbamazepine, no alcohol consumption, limited caffeine consumption and regular sleep schedule are all helping.