Bipolar, bipolar disorder, depression, mania, Mental Health, mental illness, Uncategorized

Mental illness recovery gets easier if you learn to cope on your own

I think that mental illness recovery gets easier once you learn to cope on your own. When I couldn’t cope on my own I felt very fragile and I was constantly depending on others such as nurses, my psychiatrist, the Bipolar UK helpline and The Samaritans to help me on my journey. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes you do need a psychiatrist appointment sooner than planned but what I am trying to say is perhaps it’s better to have a higher severity of symptoms that you can cope with on your own before you go to the psychiatrist.

I have learnt to cope with manic and depressive symptoms on my own to an extent and now I feel stronger, less fragile and feel that my recovery is going well instead of feeling that my recovery isn’t well simply because I am seeing my psychiatrist a lot as I am not coping.

The last time I was manic I wasn’t destructive. I was just very goal orientated and was focused on posting a lot on my blog so I could achieve my aim of creating change a person at a time through my blog. If I had acted promiscuously or done something that involved nudity I would have told my psychiatrist but compared to some of my typical manic behaviour I was quite conservative.

I was physically ill recently and spent a lot of time in home and in my bed. As a result of this I got severely depressed to the point that I was despairing and passively suicidal. My response was to deal with it myself and ensure that I spent a sufficient amount of time going for a walks and getting out of the house as I knew my depression was circumstantial and the world seemed bleak to me as I wasn’t doing much and was stuck in the house.

I got out of the darkest parts of the depression where I was thinking of euthanasia and I feel okay now.

I also managed to stop some of my recent manic behaviour where I was extreme dieting by cutting out carbs and skipping meals as I decided that it wasn’t good for my moods for me to not eat properly.

Of course although I think it’s good to be able to cope with bipolar alone I agree that sometimes immediate help from a health professional is required for example if you are severely manic and psychotic or severely depressed and actively suicidal but I think it’s good to be able to cope with the lesser extremes when you are not in crisis or know you can get out that dark place on your own.




art, Bipolar, bipolar disorder, creative writing, Poème, Poemas, Poems, Poesia, Poetry, Uncategorized

I have been longing for more than your lips

Whilst your bones were brushing mine
The sweetest lighting aroused my spine.

Of course I wanted you to press a rose into my lips-
Shyness stopped me.
Of course I desired your kiss!

You holding me close
Whilst I tasted your lips
Didn’t rid me of my longing, yearning, desire
For more than your lips.

I have spent all week anticipating the moment I would kiss you,
Hold you,
Touch you,
Let you touch me,
Let you satisfy me with you mouth,
Make love to you.

Copyright © Electra Rose January 2016