Rape, sexual assault, Sexual Violence, Uncategorized

I finally feel over my rape as I’m no longer scared in sexual situations

I lost my virginity to rape and afterwards although I met up with guys and kissed them I was unable to have sex and kept refusing them.  Then finally a year and three months later I finally had sex and I did again. This is a massive sign of progress for me as I thought I was never going to have a normal sex life and I was going to forever feel abnormal. Now I feel more comfortable with things and like more of an adult.

I still have trust issues but that is natural and I wonder whether being less trusting of people can protect me anyway from being hurt again.

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Bipolar, bipolar disorder, depression, Mental Health, mental illness, Uncategorized

Sometimes you have to make the right decision even if it isn’t the decision you want to make

Like many sufferers from bipolar, when I am hypomanic I am sometimes reluctant to tell the psychiatrist as I am enjoying myself in my high and don’t want to stop having fun. This happened to me recently but instead of riding the high I phones up my psychiatrist after going to a bipolar group where they told me to talk to the doctor. She told me to up one of my medications again which I had been taking on a lower dosage. I’m aware that I have been enjoying myself but I don’t want to be unable to study when I go back to university.

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