I lost my virginity to rape and afterwards although I met up with guys and kissed them I was unable to have sex and kept refusing them. Then finally a year and three months later I finally had sex and I did again. This is a massive sign of progress for me as I thought I was never going to have a normal sex life and I was going to forever feel abnormal. Now I feel more comfortable with things and like more of an adult.
I still have trust issues but that is natural and I wonder whether being less trusting of people can protect me anyway from being hurt again.