Time goes by and I keep asking
If it was the right decision.
The anger and the upset hurt my soul
But 10 years is so long
And my heart bleeds for those 10 years.
I know I was so angry
At your denial of the struggles that you hide,
Your denial of your constant unhappiness,
Your denial at your crippling insecurities.
But it hurts me more
Than when I loved that guy.
I don’t cry
But I feel the piercing pain inside-
It’s like a living thing has died.
And yet, just four months and I cried
Over him for a year.
10 years and I can’t seem to find a tear.
Perhaps our tie
Didn’t matter to me.
Copyright © Electra Rose January 2016