Uncategorized

If you can’t face your new self how can you recover from mental illness?

I have learnt that one of the important things with regards to my recovery from borderline personality disorder and bipolar is to accept that the reality I once faced when I was many years younger is no longer the case and that I have to accept myself for who I am and although I argue I am a lot more than my mental illnesses they are a part of who I am and I have to face my new self in order to recover.

I have to accept that I can be shitty with people because of my issues and make bad decisions and work from there to try and be a better person.

Advertisements
Standard
Uncategorized

The life of a manic depressive

It’s 3:42pm in Spain and I haven’t slept yet; I’ve been staying up all night and for a lot of the night chatting to Spanish people and other people. I also had some tequila.

I don’t want to sleep; I guess this is what you call letting the mania take control.

Standard
Uncategorized

Guaranteed help at A&E to prevent avoidable deaths from suicide – Petitions

Guaranteed help at A&E to prevent avoidable deaths from suicide – Petitions
— Read on petition.parliament.uk/petitions/231772

Standard
Uncategorized

I’ll just have a cigarette so I feel better

I’ll just have a cigarette so I feel better,

I’ll just have some shisha so I feel better,

I’ll just have a drink so I feel better,

I used to smoke weed to feel better,

I used to sleep with lots of guys to feel better,

I used to overdose to feel better.

Now I travel to feel better,

But is it just an escape?

And what have I been escaping all these months?

Am I still damaged from 2016?

I just don’t know so I continue to travel to feel better,

To try and find something better.

Standard
Uncategorized

Just because someone else hurt you so bad doesn’t mean you have to end your life to show them what the consequences were

Last night my father domestically abused me and gripped his arms so tightly around my shoulders.

As I sit here drinking another cocktail I tell myself to not rise to the occasion of hurting him so badly back and I remind myself that I am more likely to succeed because I’ve been drinking.

So no, I’m not going to overdose even though I want to because I don’t want it to go wrong and mean I actually end my life.

Standard