I have bipolar disorder but I am also a recovering alcoholic.
It was a gradual process. When I was 18 and going to clubs I drank so much I ended up throwing up the next day.
Then at university I would have one bottle of wine for pre drinks and then multiple rum and coke doubles or tequila shots and I was more drunk than everyone.
Once I had two bottles of wine at a party and threw up and then left with my best friend Will and continued to drink lots at the students union.
A fellow student told me he was concerned about the amount I was drinking.
Then when I came home from university I ended up drinking multiple doubles of gin and tonic about four times a week whilst my mother was out of the country.
I once ended up going to the GP after having drank six doubles and I was very drunk.
I stopped drinking for three months once I got depressed and then only had a drink this week as I have been manic and could not control myself.
I know my hardcore drinking also got worse after I was sexually assaulted.